it's been a hard time for me lately, but decisions have been made. Unfortunately there are a few more to make, but it will work out. I regret that I kept trying so hard for so long. Oh well.

I'm ready for some change. I don't know what to change yet, but I need something to change. Hopefully soon.

push it all out
leave it all behind
wish it were different
plead for more
beg

ignored
cast out
told god wouldn't make you
lost
trod upon

you wonder why belief is hard anymore?
Someone else cross to bear
I'm not carrying for someone who doesn't even want me.