LIsten

Listen,they don't hear
listen,a still small voice
listen, i don't hear
listen, empty
say it, I love you
i want to feel it

soon ,i feel
soon, i know
soon, the time is come
soon, a talking voice
say it, not condemn
i know it will not change

goodbye, to you
goodbye, its not the end
goodbye, til we meet again
goodbye, to me
do it, i love you
peace is elusive



I watched a show tonight and the network for women. inspirational? I don't think so. Sometimes you realize that's the way things are. You either accept them and move on or you get stuck where your at. Eternally stuck doesn't sound good to me, but i don't see any other choice.


God is great.
God is compassion?
God is the avenging Angel.
God is love?
God is truth.


I have the truth, but not completely. Do any of us? I don't think so... I really don't. The truth hurts sometimes, sometimes too much.

Saying something more

So after my wonderful drunken rampage where I said way to many things I didn't mean to all the people I really care about, I though I would say everything is back to "normal."

Christmas was really great. It snowed to much Christmas evening all of my family decided to stay in Tooele instead of driving back to our respected homes! It was actually a lot of fun. I got to see a lot more of my family than I was expecting to and I got out of working the next day!!!! Good thing all my clients were understanding of the situation since Laura and Ed were not able to make it to work either. Basically we had appointments and nobody was at the shop! Crazy, Crazy.

understanding truth
understanding lies
understanding me
understanding you
I seek.
and sometimes find
I wish to understand
the truth of all things
understanding
never complete.





I want to live a Fairy Tale
once. maybe always. if i can
change it. over and over

I want to be in a Fairy Tale
once. at lease sometimes. if I can
feel it. over and over

I yearn to see a Fairy Tale
live. someday. if they
exist. over and over










Feelings inside
etching to get out.
wishing forever to be
in imagine.
longing to overcome
the edges of reality.
crazy it is to desire so
much. nonexistence.








changing the way reality is
believe beliefs where nobody does
seeing the thing nobody will
something like faith
and hope too
everything is there somewhere
there
like faith
somehow there
it does not flow but
i know its there
like hope
and faith too
things are different somewhere
not here
i know
i know

And it all came tumbling down. Thank God for humbling us all. Sometimes it's just too much. We are promised we won't be tempted more than we can handle. That's the one part of the gospel I don't believe. I suppose if you don't believe that then you don't believe any of it. I suppose that is good for me. So much for fathers. Everyone I've had has sucked including Him.

Good riddance.

at a loss for what to do
drowning in everlasting despair
wishing things were different
realistically a realist

hoping it works
realizing it will not
wishing hoping dreaming
told to be real

Anyone want to buy my friends a churro? They tried so hard.

Why buy the ride picture when you can just take a picture of it?

My first time at Disneyland when it was all decorated for Halloween.
Too bad the small world ride was closed for decorate it for Christmas.
I really missed out on that one.

Busy.