Almost every night I have to stop myself from crying and I don't know how to change it.

another one

It's just me again. I suppose it should be since it's my blog, but you never know. I never understand my moods anymore. My bipolarness has really been showing lately. Perfectly happy then perfectly sad. It's quite annoying. I don't think that's proper grammar. On well, like I said it is my blog of randomness. Anyway there really isn't any new news in my life. So I guess that's it.

A short post

Why would I write a post? I don't know I'm just in the mood. My dog won't stop barking! common theme. I should probably get rid of a few but I don't seem to do what I "probably" should do. I have to work early in the morning (stupid new servers). I'm sitting here listening to The Host by Stephanie Meyer and must say this on is much better than her twilight books. This one is still a little cheesy and full of cheesy love, but it's good. I"ve been watching Dexter also. Very intriguing and a little disgusting. I have lots of hopes right now, we just need to wait until after wednesday for them all to be crushed. (that's the jaded cynic in me!)

For you

I sit here playing songs for you
Wishing you would listen
Praying you are listening
Wanting you to listen

I want to dance with somebody who loves me
I want to defy gravity with you
I want it to be possible with you
I want to be beautiful to you

No one is ever going to love you more than I do
No one’s goin’ love you more than I do
I never want to hear you say you’d be better off
Anything to make you smile I’ll do

Please forgive me
It feels like lightening running through my veins
Every time I look at you
I want you to look at me that way

Please grow old with me
So I can believe in ever ever afters
Words fall through me
I just want to be able to say
I love you, I love you

We still got time
We have a choice
Let’s make it now
I’m falling slowly for you.

I am the victim
if not i'll make so
that is my goal
to pretend i'm not
and become the universal victim

An Announcement!

No I'm not pregnant. I have been offered a job!!! I'm going to be the new practice manager at Mountain View Veterinary Health Center. I'm quite excited. Now I just have to negotiate a salary and bonus arraignment. I'm not very good at that.

sitting by a window sill
seeing the outside
sun rays shining
leaving lines on the floor

dirty, dirty, dirty shag
beautiful with light
faded over years
of brightness lighting it