For you

I sit here playing songs for you
Wishing you would listen
Praying you are listening
Wanting you to listen

I want to dance with somebody who loves me
I want to defy gravity with you
I want it to be possible with you
I want to be beautiful to you

No one is ever going to love you more than I do
No one’s goin’ love you more than I do
I never want to hear you say you’d be better off
Anything to make you smile I’ll do

Please forgive me
It feels like lightening running through my veins
Every time I look at you
I want you to look at me that way

Please grow old with me
So I can believe in ever ever afters
Words fall through me
I just want to be able to say
I love you, I love you

We still got time
We have a choice
Let’s make it now
I’m falling slowly for you.

I am the victim
if not i'll make so
that is my goal
to pretend i'm not
and become the universal victim

An Announcement!

No I'm not pregnant. I have been offered a job!!! I'm going to be the new practice manager at Mountain View Veterinary Health Center. I'm quite excited. Now I just have to negotiate a salary and bonus arraignment. I'm not very good at that.

sitting by a window sill
seeing the outside
sun rays shining
leaving lines on the floor

dirty, dirty, dirty shag
beautiful with light
faded over years
of brightness lighting it

just another day

Not too much is going on, but I think I have finally figured out what to do with things.

All things must come to an end?

So long fair well,
I hate saying it, but sometimes you must.

I'm going back to being a peon for somebody,
hopefully I can work things out.

I like Moulin Rouge

Another hero. Another mindless crime.
Behind the curtain, in the pantomime.
On and on
Does anybody know
What we are living for
Whatever happens
We leave it all to chance
Another heartache
Another failed romance
On and on
Does anybody know
What we are living for

The show must go on
The show must go on
Outside the dawn is breaking
On the stage that holds
Our final destiny
The show must go on
The show must go on

Sometimes don't you want to do
What everyone else tells you not to

Just to show you can
Just to prove them wrong

Everyone doubts
Says it's too much

Do I really want to do it
or just show everyone?

sitting

Sitting here, thinking here
lying there, wishing there
alone in a bed

alone here, alone there
being all alone
it's queen size too

decisions made, follow through
someday here, maybe there
sometime, hopefully soon

I'm all alone in bed
I'm all alone in my head
I'm all alone

The end of movies

So the Oscars...
what's the point? I sit a watch little bits and think. how stupid to spend that much time and money on an awards show. more publicity eh? and we the people fall for it.

mom

Newspaper clippings and magazine rippings
shoved into a kitchen drawer (along with a few stray crossword puzzles)
Finding a certain recipe was usually a pretty big chore
Finding the right recipe was easy
you just grabbed one!
“I thought it looked good,” was always the comment.
In reality, sometimes it did and sometimes it didn’t
But that was the adventure.

Lyrics | Rent - Without you lyrics


Empty hollow chest,
beating fleeting heart
its gone. All.

sad reeling skull,
depressed repressed mind
it hurts. Very.

shallow hurting hands,
worn torn soul
broken. Now.

Empty hollow chest,
dead unfed heart
its gone. Forever.

Without you, I die
Without you, its true
Without you.

LIsten

Listen,they don't hear
listen,a still small voice
listen, i don't hear
listen, empty
say it, I love you
i want to feel it

soon ,i feel
soon, i know
soon, the time is come
soon, a talking voice
say it, not condemn
i know it will not change

goodbye, to you
goodbye, its not the end
goodbye, til we meet again
goodbye, to me
do it, i love you
peace is elusive



I watched a show tonight and the network for women. inspirational? I don't think so. Sometimes you realize that's the way things are. You either accept them and move on or you get stuck where your at. Eternally stuck doesn't sound good to me, but i don't see any other choice.


God is great.
God is compassion?
God is the avenging Angel.
God is love?
God is truth.


I have the truth, but not completely. Do any of us? I don't think so... I really don't. The truth hurts sometimes, sometimes too much.